It is a strange feeling to have finished study, potentially permanently. I now have to truly find my way in the world. This is a terrifying idea. How can I, someone who still feels like the young person who just moved out of home, truly be an adult? There are things in life that don't… Continue reading Uncertainty
I lay down to sleep. I have been doing fine all day. I've managed to push through every little bit of anxiety or despair that has come my way. I have fought back, and managed to defeat it. At least, it felt like it at the time. I was able to complete a decent amount… Continue reading I lay down to sleep
One of the hardest things in my life has been being a student with PTSD and its side effects. One of the most prominent is disassociation. When someone lives through a traumatic experience, their brain develops its own coping methods to help that person to move on. Disassociation is where the brain disconnects the person… Continue reading Studying with disassociation
Every day I get asked at least once "How are you?". Almost every day I respond "I'm tired". The hearer assumes it's because I didn't sleep enough, but the response holds so much more behind it. I am tired because I struggle to fall asleep at night, it is true. I am tired because I… Continue reading I am tired.
Others have it worse, so I am okay. I never stopped repeating this phrase to myself.I couldn’t have considered that there was anything wrong I never sought help I couldn’t figure out a reason why I was sadI never had a reason to be, it’s not like my life was bad. Others have it worse, so I… Continue reading Others have it worse
Despite every good thing that has happened to me, I am still afraid. I don't think I ever won't be afraid. However, I don't think that this is a bad thing. It's just a natural response to everything that has happened.
Welcome to this blog! As stated in the about section, this is primarily a personal blog which I will use to document my journey through life as a person with mental health issues. My main "issues" are depression and anxiety that stem primarily from PTSD. That is, a mix of PTSD and Complex PTSD. The… Continue reading Welcome